why does it hurts so bad?…
May 22, 2009
Let me pause…
I wanna shout, cry my heart out. Why do I fall so easily with people who dont even notice me? Who dont even give a damn about me? People who dont share the slightest interest of what I do and what I am.
How can I change this foolish heart and become a stone. I wanna stop loving and falling in love. I dont wanna be a fool anymore.
The guy Ive been wishing for my birthday. Gone.
I hate this life. For once I wanted someone so badly yet I cant realy have it.
Ciao
hurting..
May 18, 2009Ive been really upset lately with myself, the situation I am int and a lot of things. I cant sleep at night thinking how I became a lot more stupid and pathetic. Ive been denying, Ive been reluctant to accept some characters/attitudes that I posses. I know Im insecure, I know am really annoying but cant help but deny those things. Last night, something happen, there was this guys i talked over the phone and he told “kulang ka sa pansin”. It didn’t really hurt me, though “sobrang nanliit ako”, I want to cry but maybe since the unconscious side of yourself knows a lot more about me than me, not a tear fell from my eye. but I am really sad and disappointed of myself I want to get rid of this self although I wanted it. Am I really that annoying? can somebody tell me? I just hate this. Now I am so bugged.
I am desperate of some attention but that doesn’t mean I am annoying. Then when I was washing my clothes earlier, I made a plan. Maybe Ill just have to prepare myself for someone who will come, someone who wont be annoyed by my presence. Someone who will be happy with everything that I do. Someone who would appreciate me better than I appreciate myself. someone who is so strong that whenever I feel like given up or losing hope he is there to lend me everything he has.
This maybe a pipe dream, but hey at least Im allowed to dream right? If you can give me a better idea of what should I do. Then that will be mostly appreciated.
Ciao
PS
I like that guy, but he seemed not interested. Well, then again. Ill wait. 
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oVerwheLmed..
May 13, 2009
For people who knows me well enough would say its not me if what they’re seeing is a person so detached with her phone. That’s me, I am a super fool girl, I fall for people I happen to know only in the virtual world of texting, I fall for guys who tries to PM me when I’m in a chat room. I fall way so easy, I even fall for guys who happen to pick up my hanky in the middle pf the street. That’s me. The real Debbie. When I love, I am very sincere even with/in the most unexpected and unusual place and situation. I shed tears of infinite volume whenever they would say they’re in love with somebody. I cry a million tears whenever a guy over the phone says he’s sick or he’s sad. That is me, so me. I look for love even at an undefinable situation I look for love, I crave for it, I want it and even thought I need it. I love loving and I love being loved. No matter how huge it cost I always dare to risk everything just for it. I’ve been hurt zillion times but it never caused my heart to hesitate on loving again. This is me. My friends use to tell me I’m nuts, that people I meet over some media are just virtual. They are never true, but I don’t care. Whenever I get to know a guy more intimately than friendship I always tell them that, I don’t care if you’re not sincere with your emotion as long as I am I’ll be okey.
But lately something happened, guys starts pouring.. yeah no kidding.. They’re not even virtual. Not just a text mate, not even a guy I met over the chat room and absolutely not a guy over the phone. But you know what? I kinda not in the mood to open my heart for them. I don’t expect anything from them and that is just not me? I am so happy now that I can ignore this guy. I love my life right now that sometimes I think I don’t need love and don’t want to be loved.
Am i going to be nuts?
Ciao. *help*
heAlth aleRt! (correct If unTrue….)
May 10, 2009This was sent to me by people who went to the same school as I did. Its kinda alarming so I thought I might share it to warm people. But in case this thing is not true you can always correct me.
In Taiwan, a woman suddenly died unexpectedly with signs of bleeding from her ears, nose, mouth & eyes. After a preliminary autopsy it was diagnosed that death was due to arsenic poisoning. Where did the arsenic come from?
The police launched an in-depth and extensive investigation. A medical school professor was called in to solve the case.
The professor carefully looked at the contents from the deceased’s stomach. In less than half an hour, the mystery was solved. The professor said: ‘The deceased did not commit suicide and neither was she murdered, she died of accidental death due to ignorance!’
Everyone was puzzled, why accidental death?
The arsenic is of the U.S. military for carrying rice seedlings H Gao. The professor said: ‘The arsenic is produced in the stomach of the deceased.’ The deceased used to take ‘Vitamin C’ everyday, which in itself is not a problem.. The problem was that she ate a large portion of shrimp/prawn during dinner. Eating shrimp/prawn is not the problem in itself that’s why nothing happened to her family ever though they took the same shrimp/prawn. However at the same time the deceased also took ‘vitamin C’, that is where the problem is!
Researchers at the University of Chicago in the United States through experiments, found food such as soft-shell shrimp / prawn contains a much higher concentration of 5 potassium arsenic compounds.
Such fresh food by itself has no toxic effects on the human body! However, in taking ‘vitamin C’, due to the chemical reaction, the original non-toxic - five potassium arsenic (As anhydride, also known as arsenic oxide, the chemical formula for As205) changed to a three potassium toxic arsenic (ADB arsenic anhydride), also known as arsenic trioxide, a chemical formula (As203), which is commonly known as arsenic to the public!
Arsenic poisoning have magma role and can cause paralysis to the small blood vessels, “mercapto Jimei”??, inhibits the activity of the liver and fat necrosis change Hepatic Lobules Centre, heart, liver, kidney, intestine congestion, epithelial cell necrosis, telangiectasia. Therefore, a person who dies of arsenic poisoning will shows signs of bleeding from the ears, nose, mouth & eyes.
Hope this may add to the awareness of the people but if this thing is not true please feel free to correct.
Ciao
escApadeS wiTh kuYa taZ
May 8, 2009I have some photos we took some time ago. Just me and Karen with Kuya Taz.
Just wanna share it with you.
Enjoy.
Ciao
readY sIng.. hEy!
Around the world people has been amazed with how the man Manny Pacquiao defeated the Hit man Ricky Hatton. In the Philippines although lots of people has been truly amazed with the win what made the commotions the most was how Martin Nievera sang the song. Come on! What does it really matter? How one sings the national anthem? Ive been a fan of how the Americans are singing there Star Spangled Banner, they sing it in many different ways but they never made it a great deal. As for me, maybe its not how one sings it. Maybe it should be how they pour they soul and emotion on the song. The passion while they sing it, and for the audience, yes the voice may matter a lot but the song should not only reach the ears but also the heart. That at one point, together we feel the nationalism bursting in each others hearts. Its at one point we feel so proud of being what we are.
So now they’re gonna arrest Martin Nievera or whoever sings the national anthem and goes beyond the beat? I say that is just so LAME of them.
Ciao. *hmp*
